there are flowers
in this world
that only grow
once the ground
above them burns.

you were that fire.

this is not my end.
this is my birth.
—Pavana पवन

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Lelaros, a Red Jenny

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Written by Krissy

est November 2015

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provocatcur-blog said: smothers him in kisses, happy leap day nerd.
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      “The fuck’s a leap day?”

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provocatcur-blog said: Kisses his cheek and holds him close.

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         “What’s all this about, huh? Only been gone for a week or two.”

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fadedforthem said: ❝ yo ! don’t waste food ! ❞ [modernverse mayb~]

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        “I fucking hate cabbage. You don’t wanna waste it, you eat it. Shit’s gross.”

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avvaress said: there are no cons to having sex with lelaros tbh

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Too true.

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Anonymous said: I'd be more concerned about your father ruining other lives. Who's to say he won't destroy the ones you've gathered around to protect you like the coward you are before he finds you again? Maybe you're prepared to die, but are you prepared to let them suffer for you?

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       “Maybe that’s why not too many people know about him. Because I know what he can do. If there’s one thing I got from him it’s his power of persuasion. The only fucking decent thing he’s ever given me. But I know they can’t protect me. I’ve told them that. Whether they try or not it’s up to them.”

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Anonymous said: Nevermind about your father, or whatever. You would have left, eventually, because that's what you do, that's in your nature. Eventually, you always leave, that's why you try your hardest to be so unlikeable to everyone, deep down you think you deserve to be alone and nobody will ever truly love you for what/who you are. You will live your life always expecting others to leave and one foot ready to jump ship, always here but not really. And you are right. In the end you will be alone.

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         “So fucking what? That’s just how life is. Some people are just meant to be alone at the end and I’m one of ‘em. Can’t blame me for being cautious, either. I know how people are. Most of ‘em are after something from me. Secrets, sex, or some shit I can’t give them. So it’s whatever.” He shrugs his shoulders. He’s not the type of person people want to stick by and he knows it.

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Anonymous said: you've done and suffered so much and yet all you do for people is useless. those in power will always win

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“Wouldn’t say that. Change doesn’t happen right away. Takes time. Whatever changes I’m making out there are big ones, you just can’t see it yet. Yeah, some things I’ve done haven’t amounted to anything. Blow up a wall, they build a bigger one, blow that one up, they build it higher. I’ve learned to go right to the source. Kill ‘em or have ‘em so wrapped around my finger that they’ll do just about anything for my attention. I’ve learned sometimes words are just as powerful and get more of a point across than my daggers will. Sure, most Friends and other Jennies would scoff, but least I’m tryin’ to do lasting changes instead of a temporary fix.”

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Anonymous said: Your father will find you again. He won't be as merciful the second time.

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           His blood runs cold at those words, his face rapidly loosing it’s coloring. Ros feels as though he might swoon and his hand reaches out, grabbing the edge of a nearby table in a white knuckle grip. It’s been four years and he’s still afraid of this very thing. A shiver runs down his spine, and he finds he cannot even turn to face whomever dared to say such a thing.

                      “My father doesn’t care enough to find me. And what’s the worst he could do anyway, that him or somebody else hasn’t already done? Kill me? Not afraid of that.

           Hazel eyes search desperately for Teller in the crowded tavern, near desperate for that safety, that knowledge of being grounded. No such luck, not yet, but he knows his partner in crime’s around here somewhere. He needs to find him, needs to leave and get air, and to hide in Teller’s bed for the rest of the night. Nothing bad would happen there.

                      “Now get the fuck away from me.” 

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Anonymous said: she will never love you. She couldn't possibly love someone who leaves, who breaks hearts as a rule. you're only there to warm her bed. She's just like every other customer you had at the inn. Only fed you better.

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        “She can’t even think about leaving me or kickin’ me out. That sounds like I’m more than just a pretty little thing to warm her bed, huh?”

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Anonymous said: your father was right to cast you out. blood mage or no, you destroy everything and everyone you touch. you know this and yet you keep trying to cling to people knowing that you'll ruin them. yet you'd claim to love them! if you loved anyone you would do them a favor and keep away.

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         “Do I? Seems like I do more good than harm, ‘specially for other people. Don’t really give much of a fuck for myself, so you can say all you want about blood mage and whatever. I’m my own person, don’t need to cling. So take your bullshit somewhere else cause I don’t wanna hear it.”

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